tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7953383377208162257.post7889289542852155216..comments2023-03-31T10:01:32.015-04:00Comments on Running The Race Before Us: reality checkJamiehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06577680603923217492noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7953383377208162257.post-70920255520808957282010-10-25T13:08:08.147-04:002010-10-25T13:08:08.147-04:00Jamie - honestly I thought that maybe you were not...Jamie - honestly I thought that maybe you were not as calm as it seemed you were. I couldn't even "talk myself into" being that calm. LOL! I am glad that you came to these realizations. It's a crappy situation - I barely grieved Riley and then was thrilled to be pregnant with Peyton 4 months later. Then it all crashed down again. So the past two months I have really been grieving them both. And I agree with Andrea - we get through it not "over it"... It sure changes our lives forever. <br />I know - as you do - that God knows best and has a plan. That is reassuring but oh how I wish I KNEW that my next pregnancy would just go perfect and I would have a baby on Earth. I just hope when I am pregnant again that God will bring me a whole TON of peace through it all. <br />Much love to you! <3Jessicahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15550346625004276669noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7953383377208162257.post-26369638523457032952010-10-25T12:45:42.949-04:002010-10-25T12:45:42.949-04:00I think this was a good break through for you Jami...I think this was a good break through for you Jamie. I kept worrying for you that you were jumping back into things too soon - without working through your grief over your loss. I was glad that the bible study helped you see that. Thinking of you dear!Karahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06783608926011177677noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7953383377208162257.post-76055095070000594902010-10-25T09:31:45.534-04:002010-10-25T09:31:45.534-04:00Sweetest Friend,
We never get over it, we just ge...Sweetest Friend,<br /><br />We never get over it, we just get through it.<br /><br />I remember all those trying days when TTC consumed my every thought. I'd chart and temp and use the OPK's, get a negative result...cue the downhill spiral for a few days. Then, it was off and trying again! This is havoc on the emotions.<br /><br />It was not until L-O-N-G into the process, seeing an RE and having done the IUI that I gave in to my intuition of seeing a shrink. Let me just say that hour with a complete stranger and pouring out my heart was the best medicine I'd had in 15 months. My therapist was amazing! She knew how to release the inner deamons and bring back a part of me that was missing....all in one beginner session. I only wish I had done it sooner :) There is just something to be said about a professional who "knows" what to say to a mother grieving her child.<br /><br />We not only grieve for the lost child, but we grieve our lost hopes, dreams and aspirations for the life we had planned. And let me just say...that is SO hard to let go of.<br /><br />You are not alone in this. We have all stood "exactly" where you stand now....in quick sand. However, you think you will sink and completely fade away, but you only get up to your knees before being rescued by all these wonderful ladies who love you.<br /><br />Letting go is the most difficult aspect...it takes lots of time, so don't rush it, just allow him to direct your steps.<br /><br />My favorite verse this week is Job 9:10. It's worth looking up :)<br /><br />Many HUGSAndreahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06709001842788289402noreply@blogger.com