June 14, 2011

Warning - pregnant woman venting

First, let me apologize to those reading - and who continue reading this - that are in the midst of TTC and would do anything and endure anything right now to be where I am currently - 33 weeks pregnant.  I've been there.  TTC and urning for that urge to vomit that may signal the start of a new life growing inside me...  I hope and pray daily you get what you want!  Especially if you are a BLM and TTC! 

Anyway, so if you currently can't stand to hear a pregnant person whine about her aches and pains, now is the time to click away from this post. 

I'm sorry, but I have to do this...

Seriously, I'm about to let it all out.  CLICK.  AWAY.

Here goes.... I can't breathe people!!!!  HELP!    Why does breathing have to be so hard?!?!?!  It makes everything else hard - like walking and talking.  Two things I kinda like to do! 

I feel all... bloated and useless.  I feel like I'm robing Beth of a better summer vacation.  I feel like I'm robing my husband of his wife.  Like I'm robing me of me!

I want ME back!

All this makes it very hard to bond with Hannah right now. I just want her out so I can start to figure out a new normal which includes two children instead of one - whoa, and that alone blows my mind! 

I guess I just like to be productive, and I hate it that I just can't right now.  I can't.  I hate waiting.  HATE! IT!

I need to go get that book, Pregnancy Sucks:  What to do when your miracle makes you miserable.

 Now, I'm hungry.  Again.  Gotta go. More vent later.  Possibly about how I was up every 30 mins last night with the urge to walk around the house.  Yeah...

2 comments:

  1. If you have the urge to walk, DO IT! Sleep during naptime! Walking might just get Hannah here sooner so you can be less miserable.

    (Also? I would rather be pregnant than have a baby right now. I loved being pregnant but...well...me and my infant didn't see eye-to-eye.)

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  2. Hi Jamie,
    Although I can't relate to the pregnancy part, as a chronic pain sufferer I CAN relate to feeling useless and like my husband is getting dealt a crappy hand. Let's not kid ourselves - it's hard to adjust to a 'new normal' and having people tell you to not dwell on it does't help. But in a way it is true - although Hannah may not understand all the intricacies of pregnancy, your husband knows that this is temporary. It will take time to adjust to this and I know that it took me a very long time to let myself 'off the hook' for being a lot less productive than I was before. Now, I set one or two goals for the day and to be honest, I often don't even achieve them and so I feel guilty, but I've learned that they just move the incomplete task to another day and it'll get done when it gets done...but it take a long time to et to that mindset. Good luck!

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