August 4, 2012

2nd Angelversary

Tomorrow.

Yep.  That day. Two years ago...

The day we lost our second child, our Angel.

I think about it now - that day - without tears.  Just a terrible longing for what might have been...

Who would he/she have been?  What about the personality?  Would he/she have had hair like Hannah or be bald until the age of two like Beth? 

That day changed me. Not really in a good or bad way.  I'm just different.  Losing what I expected to be mine... getting terribly sick with the flu days after...  I'd never been so scared in my life!  I realized how frail I really was...

But then, I realized how great my God is too.  I've met some wonderful ladies I wouldn't have otherwise met without the loss.  I'm much more sensitive to those who go through something like this.  I was not as sensitive before.  God has brought good things out of the bad. 

In honor of my Angel, I did a couple things.  First, I bought a candle from Audrey's Little Light. She did a great job on it! It has forget-me-nots!! :-) I'll light it tomorrow, in remembrance, and post a pic.

I had my dear friend at Blessed, Not Crazy create some great pics of Angel's name with all our names on a Scrabble board.  I love these!  Cute idea!!  I'll post those tomorrow too.

And then, I registered for the annual Zoe Rose Memorial Foundation's remembrance celebration on October 13th.  They'll light a candle for our Angel that day.

My heart gets heavy this time of year. Again, for what might have been...

Angel, mommy misses you.  I REALLY do.  I look forward to meeting you in heaven one day and praising our savior together.  Love you!

4 comments:

  1. Thinking of you as you remember your sweet angel baby. It does help to believe we'll see them again someday, doesn't it? Hugs to you Jamie!

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  2. Thinking of you and Angel, my friend. I will never forget your Angel as long as I live! That little one touched my heart all the way from Heaven! My heart too is very heavy this time of year as it is also Micah's angelversary. I am so sorry for your loss. Thank you for your friendship and prayers over these last two years. They have meant so very much to me.
    ((((HUGS)))
    Love,
    Mary

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  3. Thinking of you and your sweet angel today <3 (((hugs))) the 19th is Peyton's 2nd angelversary too - much love to you!

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  4. August sucks :( But I can't believe it's been 2 years, I like to look back on everyone's blogs and see how amazingly far we've come. God is good, getting so many of us through so much heartache!

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