I was asked to speak at a rally near our state capitol orchestrated
by a few teachers’ organizations. One
group in particular asked me to be its representative and deliver a speech on
behalf of its members. It is an
organization near and dear to my heart dealing with teachers and state benefits. I spoke at a rally they put together on the state capitol steps around this time last year shortly after they formed. So when I was asked to speak again, there was
no hesitation; I wanted to help. I had
the day off from work (we’re on winter break), and I knew the local daycare
could watch the girls, because hubby would be working, so I said yes.
The speech was sent to me, and after I revised and edited it
somewhat, I practiced it. Despite my
nervousness and being way out of my comfort zone (I teach high school English
for crying out loud, not how to talk politics!), I was going to
deliver this speech as best I could!
Even after all my preparation to give this speech, I still felt
uneasy about my trip into the city.
Truly, I’m an introvert (believe it or not), and thoughts of meeting new
people and of discussing political topics were making my stomach ache. I reached out to others and asked them to
pray for me. And then I prayed. I prayed in the words of Proverbs chapter
three…
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust
in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all
your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
I prayed, “Lord, you know what I’m going to do
tomorrow. I’m going to speak and try to
help those that are being treated unjustly.
God I need your blessing. I need
you to make my path straight. Be in this
endeavor and in these words I speak tomorrow.”
I asked for God to give me strength, boldness, and courage.
Then, the night before I was to give the speech, an ice
storm hit. And while the icy weather didn’t seem to be adversely affecting
the roadways, the ice began to coat everything else: including trees and power
lines. Soon, our power went out. And then, it was reported that the power at
the daycare was out. And the morning I was to go into the capitol, the daycare director announced
they would be closed for the day. Suddenly,
I had no one to watch my girls so I could go give the speech!
And just as suddenly, due to work closures because of the
weather, the Lord made it possible for someone else to go instead of me.
And while my introverted self breathed a sigh of relief, I
was left feeling stunned.
I had prayed for a straight path to be made. I had
acknowledged Him - I was going to do a good and noble thing in His name, as He
is always the reason I put myself out there for causes like this. So why not facilitate this, Lord? Why give this task to another? I was willing! Scared to death, but willing.
Why not me?!
And I heard Him say, “Trust in Me, with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding.”
I can’t claim to fully understand why I was deterred from
speaking at this rally; however, I do feel as if I received a bit of a
revelation from this experience:
Although you may be willing and ready to help, and the cause is noble, you may not
be the one He wants to use.
There have been other moments in my life where I have seen
that truth played out. I have this desire to help whenever and wherever there is a need, if at all possible,
but there have been plenty of times when God has deterred me from doing
so. Times when God tells me, "No."
And although I am initially disappointed that I couldn't have been the one to satisfy a need or provide relief for someone who is struggling, it never fails that I see God use someone else mightily to fill that void.
And all is well. And I hear Him say, “Trust me.”
And I heard Him say, “I haven’t called you to this. Rest. There will be times when I call you to act. Rest until then.”
And although I am initially disappointed that I couldn't have been the one to satisfy a need or provide relief for someone who is struggling, it never fails that I see God use someone else mightily to fill that void.
And all is well. And I hear Him say, “Trust me.”
And I heard Him say, “I haven’t called you to this. Rest. There will be times when I call you to act. Rest until then.”
It’s hard for a doer to rest. But I’m learning there are times we are
called to simply just do that - rest in Him. To be still and know that He is God.
And truth be told, I need more of that – physical and spiritual rest - in my life right now. So in hindsight, I can confidently say that my Father knew what was best when He deterred me from giving that speech. Truly, my Father always knows best!
And truth be told, I need more of that – physical and spiritual rest - in my life right now. So in hindsight, I can confidently say that my Father knew what was best when He deterred me from giving that speech. Truly, my Father always knows best!
sacred, holy flame
mighty, unshakable
God
my refuge, my rest
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